Season Four

[onceaviking]

She opens the door behind her and walk him back inside with her, still kissing him.

She is kissing him.

Just one kiss and he promised her that he would be happy. And now they are raining down on him like the sweetest dew and she is moving back toward the couch (kicking off her slippers on the way) and his hand is touching the soft fabric of her dress and - yes. Yes he is happy.

They settle on the couch and he touches her, almost hesitantly.
Sookie is far more resolute, as she grabs hold of the hem of his top and pulls it off him, grinning a little.

It's the sweetest thing he has ever seen.

Her dress goes too and she lies there in her underwear, all beautiful and radiant and warm and alive.

He leans down and kisses her rib cage.
Then her belly.

Sookie lets her head fall back and moans -

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[onceaviking]

He stares at her sagging features. The rotten flesh. The exposed bit of bone high up on her cheek.

The tear stains.

"Oh," he says. Quietly.

[lazy_but_loyal]

She doesn't want his boyish, wide-eyed sympathy.

"The witch, Lafayette, his boyfriend, and his skank of a cousin, they all did this to me."

They were all part of the witch's circle; they will all pay.

[onceaviking]

Eric blinks, trying to keep up.

"Who's Lafayette?" he asks, still boyishly wide-eyed and sympathetic.

[lazy_but_loyal]

It's no use trying to inspire revenge in him, is it?

"Forget it," she sighs, dejectedly slumping back against the wall.

"I can feel myself rotting. I don't know how much time I have left."

This is something she's had to come to terms with in a very short time. At the rate she's decaying, it's as if actual death is catching up with her.

[onceaviking]

He worries his bottom lip with his teeth.
It must awful, feeling yourself fall apart like that.

Poor Pam.
Even if she is fucking scary.

He leans in a little and asks, voice low and concerned, "Are you afraid?"

[lazy_but_loyal]

"Fuck you," she half snaps, half sobs.

It takes a lot for Pam to want to curse Eric out.

"Pieces of me are falling off. I'm pissed. I am not gonna die like this. We need to get out of here and get the bitches who did this to us!"

[onceaviking]

He feels for her, he really does, but -
"No."

He shakes his head. "No. King Bill thinks we are a danger to our kind."

[lazy_but_loyal]

"Let me tell you a little something about King Bill," she says, her voice on edge. "He's a self-loathing, power-hungry, pompous little dork. And you hate his guts."

[onceaviking]

His eyes widen.

"That is treason," he whispers with an urgent note in his voice.

Stop with the treason, Pam.

[lazy_but_loyal]

Fuck treason!

"Eric, snap the fuck out of it! You have no loyalty to Bill Compton!"

She doesn't care who hears her.

She gets up and leans on the bed, coming closer to Eric, looking him in the eyes.

"You are a Viking vampire god and you bow to no one. If someone crosses you, you rip out their liver with one fang."

[onceaviking]

He inches away from her.

"No," he says. It sounds feeble.

[lazy_but_loyal]

She showed him Fangtasia. She showed him the dungeon. She told him everything she could about who he is.

And yet...it means nothing to him.

She starts to feel helpless again.

"I have been with you over a hundred years," she says, imploring him. "We've traveled the world together, killin', and fuckin', and laughin'..."

Those were good times, Eric, the best of times.

[onceaviking]

Like - with her?

All three things?

"I don't remember that," he says, defensively.

[lazy_but_loyal]

Sometimes all three things simultaneously.

"Oh, fuckin' hell," she huffs, on the verge of tears again. "You will. We'll get your life back, I swear."

[onceaviking]

It's his turn to snap.
"I don't want it!"

He half turns away from her.
"The things I've done -"
What she has told him. What Sookie has told him. Seeing the way her friend reacted.

"Uhm. I don't wanna remember."

He doesn't want to be that person. That vampire.

[lazy_but_loyal]

It cuts like a knife. Burns like silver. Breaks her heart.

The blood tears well in her eyes.

"You don't know what you're sayin'."

Please, Eric, why won't you remember?

[onceaviking]

"I am not the vampire you think I am," he says. Insistently.

He can change.
He can .

[lazy_but_loyal]

Pam sniffles, and sobs, and breaks down again. She steps back into her corner, sinking to the floor.

"So that's it. You're giving up."

The vampire she thought he was would never give up on himself.

[onceaviking]

"No."

He shakes his head.
"I'm - changing. We can do that. Like - like Godric did."

Sookie had told him about that. When he lay in her bed, crying because of a dream. A memory he couldn't remember.

[lazy_but_loyal]

Pam looks up at him.

"Godric? You remember him now?"

Maybe there's still a chance?

"And changing into what? Into who?"

[onceaviking]

He shakes his head.
"No. But - he'd want that. For us to - to coexist. To be - better."

It's not coming out right.

[lazy_but_loyal]

No, it's not.

"Have you been fucking brainwashed?"

[onceaviking]

"No. No, I've just - I want to -"

He breaks off, frustrated.

"I don't want to hurt people. To -"

[lazy_but_loyal]

Sookie. This is Sookie's doing.

"Eric. Has there been anyone, anyone, who even remotely feels the same way I do. Who wants you to get your memories back."

Because if there isn't, then yeah, he's been fucking brainwashed.

[onceaviking]

"Ehm - I think Emcee might be upset I can't remember him?"

Which - isn't really the same thing at all but -